I'm the girl who listened to "I am a Rock" by Simon & Garfunkel on repeat as a kid, just trying to find a way to not feel the way I felt.
I knew the song wasn't describing a healthy way of being, but it really seemed like the world was just demanding that I stop feeling, & I didn't know what else to do but deny myself & my feelings.
Painting helps me find more of what was there *before* I felt I needed to erase myself & my emotion.