JayByte

I has been so tired recently that I could not even manage my own Nostr relays on regular basis 😭️
Still, I am alive. I am not surprised by any crisis. Many people from upper levels of hierarchy don't have any clue how to do business, not even what is purpose of it. They keep propagandizing more AI while lacking proper integration of it, because they are stuck into "optimize one variable every time at any costs, only one layer matters" paradigm. When entropic base is inflated relatively to higher levels of reality, it just leads to fracture of system into simpler conscious entities which adapt independently in more possibility space (this is what's meta of decentralization epoch, I think). Some of them recombinate into higher conscious entities, some continue collapse, some remain the same. So I keep going with my life as I see it, as I want it.

2026-02-16 07:17:12 UTC

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Mostly early Internet, videos about maths on YouTube. If you couldn't understand foreign language at least shallowly back then, you would miss many good niches like Everybody Edits, Flash games which had programming capabilities in their level editors. You would just be stuck in autistic circle of old TV nostalgia, repeated PS1 games, tweaking cell phone, crappy PHP/HTML/JS tutorials and local pseudo-scientific meta-memes.

2026-02-13 07:43:09 UTC

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Get well soon!

2026-02-12 14:01:49 UTC

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Thank you for clarification very much! I probably understood the SD very shallowly while was reading other things in parallel.
> It's possible, it's the way it is. The development is described as non-linear: we don't discretely jump to the next levels; multiple of them keep maturing in parallel. They are constrained by distinct phases though: full maturing of level is possible when previous levels also have finished this cycle (up to the exiting phase).
Yep. Potential of higher level is constrained by potential of lower level. This is seen in variety of things: from complexity of hardware and software technologies to societal organizations. For the former, it's interesting that you could still have photo-realistic graphics on Amigas, but this was limited to photos, some specifically optimized demos and scene, static elements of games because of color calculation complexity and very few MHz CPU with very few KBs of RAM. Why we need higher level? Probably that's related to downward causality in which higher levels of complexity manage entropy at lower levels, to keep it from disintegration by interaction with chaotic environment, thus making meaning of existence of certain level of reality (the second law of thermodynamics is compatible with disintegration at physical level, r/K selection pressure at biological level which limits long-term/big scale adaptation). Disintegration manifests itself, for example, in monolithic legacy software, when adding new features risks stability of system (especially in hustle working environments). Collapse phase of development probably occurs at critical point of disintegration, when higher level of complexity attempts to scale in entropy more than lower levels of complexity (simplest form of environment push/pull?).
> If you're curious it's defined in some detail for each level for instance in "Spiral Dynamics: Mastering Values, Leadership and Change" (1996, Don Beck, Christopher Cowan); see "Exiting Phase" for each level/value system/vMEME.
I see. I've read these points, good for introduction though I expected more formal explanation on these. I've been already familiar with non-linear dynamics of world development which combines long-term entropy increase with complexity of the world and growth, acceleration, stagnation, degradation and collapse phases which were inspired by cellular automatons and relativistic personal development. That's why I found SD interesting to look at.
> Most likely I'm hallucinating. Do you mean that SD attempts to describe anything in relation to cognitive development?
No. I attempted to apply SD for different entities of intelligent life. But lower development of operational, than mental, than worldview still aligns with the hierarchy of potentials in SD, if operational model has more possibilities, than mental model which has more possibilities, than worldview model. The latter is very specific, while the former are broader. In times of crises, the worldview model tries to increase in possibilities because it's easiest option at these moments, then creating downward pressure.

2026-02-08 15:26:19 UTC

I love Nostr for its slower pace of communication, which is already set when you should sign events before sending them. Even a bit slower than in old forums with their lack of true real-time notifications
#nostr #slowlife

2026-02-08 12:08:44 UTC

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Same. I used to write my own p2p network protocol based on JSON before I discovered Nostr. It never went into production though but was fun experience 😸
(many such things in life history tbh, only few things do actual stuff)

2026-02-08 09:27:11 UTC

Spiral dynamics seems another Maslow's pyramid for neurotypical individuals, but covered into evolutionism. I think, main problems with it are:
1. What is "definition of done" for each level of complexity until it can leverage to new level of complexity? What if previous "levels" is developed for more after new level reaches its local maxima? For example, "cultural" level can evolve while lacking sufficient medication (for example, individual rituals and languages), autism does not totally block from integration into society. Thus properties from very different levels of complexity may be integrated at different stages of life.
2. Worldview complexity is not cognitive and functional complexities. The former may be ahead of the latter and vice versa. In beginning of 2010s I had deterministic worldview while most of knowledge and tools were experiential leveraged by magical thinking, not even complex logic was involved.
Since these unresolved problems of any hierarchical foundation I've come to Platonism-like foundation for worldview with different abstract "elements".

2026-02-07 19:37:55 UTC

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Cried when I remembered lullaby from my childhood which was sung by male singer back in 2000s

2026-02-07 19:17:11 UTC

Cried at night for the first time in 20 years

2026-02-07 18:58:00 UTC

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2026-02-07 18:57:07 UTC

https://image.nostr.build/e9da0605291dc960a9cbdeab0d3b0e3994c6deefdc7d884226b9fdbaaa2626a9.png

2026-02-01 14:07:13 UTC

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Ciphers and constructed languages are even longer story

2026-02-01 14:02:40 UTC

That's how the New Renaissance starts from early Y2K Medieval with fading "cyberpunk". For me decentralization is a whole mindset. There are also nanoboards, stg, over-exploitation of hyper-centralized resources if you should use them for some purpose (like work), async remote work culture. What started as simple independent life individualism, it then evolves in more complex/progressive way. This does not happen suddenly one day though, this is long-term continuous trend. And it's not always about one real variable.
#nevent1q…994u

2026-01-28 08:20:59 UTC

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Chess, macau, free solitaire

2026-01-27 11:22:14 UTC

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"But we need to move faster because we may lose opportunities and in general entropy is always increasing". Nah. This is so abstract and too much generalizing, this disregards critical aspects of work and of people who mostly align with it. Good epistemic of software engineering lays in either reducing routine friction, or creating new media products. Both ways are heavily creative and analytical work. If businesses evolve in terms of months and years, it doesn't mean you don't need any planning and vision. If you don't have it, you simply do low-operational work. Entropy increase argument is rofl for me since I have been doing CS beyond mainstream SWE work.
"But we need to ensure that employees do actual work, not slack off it". Create safe and enjoyable environments, hire smart people (the higher position is, the more intelligent employee is expected to be), reduce friction. -> "but we need to maintain healthy state of team". Constant pressure doesn't do that, contrary. But there are sometimes limits in extension and development of system ofc.

2026-01-27 10:44:00 UTC

If intellectual work is done properly, it won't require much synchronization. Coding and designing, for example, is almost done in solo productively. Pair programming is rarely needed (especially in AI age).
#nevent1q…547k

2026-01-27 10:30:53 UTC

The previous and the current year are opportunities for async remote work.

2026-01-24 11:18:30 UTC

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I rather see small changes as a mindset, not literal way of living

2026-01-24 11:10:20 UTC

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Small changes is certainly a thing of slow life. Making meaning from small change may be harder (at least initially) than making meaning from small thing, but it's good step in life from painful transitions between passive learning and abrupt change of way of life. Like past major changes, this could require more advanced technology and goods besides just mindset shift.

2026-01-24 10:32:37 UTC

"masters of Universe" who never have contributed to advancement in quality of life and freedoms as entropy is always increasing lol

2026-01-24 10:23:16 UTC

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To me it's matter if it's choice of own will or coercion. Filtering and speech can occur both in both ways. Sometimes processing signals from significantly huge amount of sources is practically impossible, so you still follow only those who match your vibe to certain degree.

2026-01-20 07:24:11 UTC

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not sustainable as a thing for long-term self-sovereign living

2026-01-20 07:22:51 UTC

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💯
This narrative reminds me of past dreams of "living long-term self-sovereign life with only Victorian era technologies". If I was smarter back then, I would quickly figure out why this isn't sustainable way of living for modern world (if ur not lucky gigachad with very healthy initial conditions ofc).

2026-01-19 12:25:32 UTC

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These are my thoughts out loud. I wanted to share them for a long time, but I was busy with my hobbies, work and constructing new meaning in life.

2026-01-19 12:15:47 UTC

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"Haha! That what silly girls would say!"
I don't pretend to be otherwise. That's my natural position in life. Many of so-called "based chads" who criticize feminine people for "being too lazy and silly", have turned out to be just posers with no real masculine work like engineering frontier physical things with rational usage of resources (not just monkeyish attempts of "trial-and-error"). They are dumb at minimum, at maximum they are just finding scapegoats for lack of their own purpose in life. So I am not offended by them.

2026-01-19 11:37:37 UTC

My 2026 resolution:
If something bad happens, it's test for adaptability.
If something significantly bad happens, it's test for intelligence.
If something very bad happens, it's test for soul.
Under bad conditions only survival-related skills, analytical thinking and politics emerge. Use it only to protect from evil, do not fall for evil. Build good.
Creativity emerges only in true boredom when you're healthy, safe and own it at least.
Real change is slow, persistent, individual, decentralized and with good sense of civilization purpose this time.

2026-01-18 08:00:27 UTC

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That's cool if this works for you! I used to sleep short hours in 2010s, but it did nothing better, with expect of that life sometimes felt like VHS movie while I experienced chronic depression (sorta awaken out-of-body experience) xD

2026-01-18 07:42:21 UTC

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This is what Web 2.0 used to be prior to enshitiffication

2026-01-11 12:16:08 UTC

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I just look at what person makes as a primary filter. If I could not find it, then check latest posts/comments in profile. Bots and irrelevant profiles never pass this test.

2026-01-11 12:01:15 UTC

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...by brick

2026-01-10 17:52:18 UTC

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Same. I only consider someone a friend if there is mutual help and relevant support for significantly long time. Until that I don't find a friend, just know someone. I also have few friends, but mostly I've firstly met them in the Internet. Then meeting in IRL, then going back to distances. But still friends though physically distributed (which is better I think).

2026-01-10 14:52:23 UTC

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Playing with non-deterministic algorithms like one which I made ~2 years ago

2026-01-10 14:49:35 UTC

Surprisingly, I found more real friends in the Internet than IRL. This is what's needed to know about "offline makes connections more authentic".

2026-01-10 14:37:27 UTC

V4V culture is probably basics for marginalizing parasites

2026-01-10 14:33:14 UTC

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They want but what they give?

2026-01-10 14:30:36 UTC

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This is about the whole idea of "growing Nostr", "death of Nostr". Nostr is and will be live when there are people interested in running relays, developing/maintaining protocol and apps.

2026-01-10 14:09:40 UTC

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*sigh* Media cons confuse platform with protocol

2026-01-10 13:57:52 UTC

Relation between informational entropy and probability of event feels natural in choice between "informational bubble" and "observing bitter reality". If event affects my life, then it's good to take it into account. If I can do something good with it, then it's meaningful. If I cannot do something good with it, then why should bother about it. If I can't find "why" on myself, then it's completely meaningless.
#slowlife #blog

2026-01-10 13:28:17 UTC

Peaceful travel for consciousness
https://image.nostr.build/ed0af0d582440440597305d9cf5bc54bbaef333cc7ae8b1b2fa45860c9cdb6c2.gif #nevent1q…5uyr

2026-01-07 16:32:16 UTC

Travel of New Renaissance
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2026-01-07 16:31:33 UTC

Travel of New Renaissance

2026-01-07 13:57:51 UTC

Merry Christmas 🎄️🎉⭐️🎁️❤️🎉🕊️🎁️💜️🎉❄️✴️

2026-01-07 09:13:57 UTC

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What I've needed is plain text note taking + executing code inline for routine activities with feedback loops and interesting demos. Jupyter Notebook is good choice for this. Any coding editor for me seems to be focused on coding specific project, not journaling with interactive examples

2026-01-06 16:05:41 UTC

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Just try it

2026-01-06 16:01:57 UTC

I was taking plain text notes for 2 years. This worked fine when I had few unique notes and some repetitive notes. Then, after I experienced more moments in my life, this became cumbersome to take them day to day. I tried to split notes by banger and cute sections at some point. This eased note taking and reading them. I even could fit short fictional story in between them. But at the end of the year, I felt fatigue again. Too many things were repeating in my text book, text notes was feeling less interesting to catch with them.
I also do handwritten note taking. However, it retained only for celebrations.

2026-01-06 15:48:20 UTC

I started 2026 year from migrating from text notes to Jupyter Notebook notes. This seems pretty fun.

2026-01-04 15:54:31 UTC

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There are both masculine and feminine spirits.

2026-01-04 14:53:57 UTC

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Sometimes it's for learning and CD, but sometimes some people are just s*t. Cancer also mutates and reproduces, from dead horse especially. What it lacks, is their own spirit. It doesn't produce original and useful for others stuff. It's always difficult to communicate with it and discuss something in constructive manner, no matter what context is. They basically eat their own s*t. Best thing is ignoring it. If it's aggressive, then learn and utilize it.

2026-01-04 09:19:37 UTC

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Both

2026-01-03 15:07:52 UTC

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Coding, posting on Nostr, making art

2026-01-03 08:56:58 UTC

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Simplistic vs simple

2026-01-02 14:49:46 UTC

Hah. These bots never change: "dear friends", small quotes with shallow meaning. Classics...

2026-01-02 08:37:59 UTC

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Or just people like him do this intentionally, to further break up society.

2026-01-02 08:35:56 UTC

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P.S. Unfortunately, there are still retards who think that you can build good things by forcing cohesion between people.

2026-01-02 08:04:15 UTC

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Thank you! ❤️
I'm safe. Though having very stressful days. I drank a bit of whiskey for this xD
Java was just very popular among newbies back then. I know him IRL and I studied with him in the same university. At the first grade of uni when I met him, I was junior dev who just finished one year of working at small local company. I never coded in Java back then, but in JavaScript, Python and some PHP. Probably we matched by shared interest in programming, Eastern philosophies and by some degree of a fact that he's vegetarian. I was not vegetarian and am not. Though I tried go veg for 3 years straight prior to the first date year, to find an "inner peace" in chronic depression while lacking F things.
What did you share in common with your (former?) friend?

2026-01-01 16:13:32 UTC

Just broke up with a "friend" who wasted my attention on pseudo-philosophical discussions and was indirectly threatening me with a possibility of hard physical damage through poetic mentions. I asked him to be clear in his questions but he still rejected it with arcane quotes. Then he completely deleted our dialogue. Two months ago he indirectly threatened me with AI deepfakes. In December of 2025 he offered me creative collaboration without clear agenda/idea (or at least offer a channel where it can be discussed clearly). Even tho we were friends.
In the previous year I knew intuitively that something was wrong in our relationship. We made one small real project on which I tutored him. In 2020 I also tutored him on another collaborative Java project with depth of programming patterns. However, he lacked genuine interest and consistency and he abandoned his learning with no useful or creative/interesting results in pet projects. He could not even consciously admit what were the problems in his path, why he even needed to start programming at all. Then after failure he just jumped to producing AI "art" with no original value or effort in sharing it. With all that he was not even bothered by a fact that I have autism spectrum disorder and I needed to put in more effort in understanding cues than so-called "normies". But I needed to confirm my clues.
I have known him for 6 years 😞️
I trust my friends like all people do.
#blog #relationship

2026-01-01 12:43:37 UTC

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Consciously(sic!) simple. Otherwise simplicity is just death. Happy New Year!

2026-01-01 11:38:40 UTC

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Thank you for good music for this New Year's Eve!

2026-01-01 11:27:13 UTC

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Happy New Year, fren! 💜️

2026-01-01 11:09:46 UTC

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2025-12-31 10:31:30 UTC

Happy New Year! 🎄️🎉⭐️🎁️❤️🎉🕊️🎁️💜️🎉❄️✴️

2025-12-27 13:49:09 UTC

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Any DB. Protocol does not define internals, but how you communicate with outside.

2025-12-25 17:54:45 UTC

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I've written about it yet in my Christmas&New Year congratulation post

2025-12-25 17:50:45 UTC

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Independent life is not only about one "variable".

2025-12-25 16:44:41 UTC

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Merry Christmas! 🎄 🎁

2025-12-25 16:28:32 UTC

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From what I heard in the "Heavenly Spittles", this is not just complex experience, but a progression of complexity which happens at critical points of exhaustion of combinations of reality in certain (local) space. Thus this feels like a story of Universe.
Have you heard this: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FDeiFfyftq8 ? For me this sounds like many such stories of different mid-Universes. IMO it's masterpiece

2025-12-25 15:02:45 UTC

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Merry Christmas! 🎄 🎁

2025-12-25 12:03:32 UTC

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Merry Christmas! 🎄️🎁️

2025-12-25 12:00:49 UTC

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Merry Christmas!

2025-12-25 11:59:33 UTC

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Merry Christmas!

2025-12-25 11:45:46 UTC

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20-21th December also

2025-12-25 11:38:54 UTC

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Merry Christmas!

2025-12-24 17:09:29 UTC

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Thank you very much! This track feels like it tells a story of the Universe. Also I listened to other Blablarism tracks. They are denser in sounding patterns than chilling "Boards of Canada". Love them!

2025-12-24 14:49:53 UTC

Merry Christmas 🎄️🎉⭐️🎁️❤️🎉🕊️🎁️💜️🎉❄️✴️

2025-12-23 18:45:22 UTC

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I hope it's more interesting, prosperous and open than what Max Caulfield was supposed to do 🙏️🐱️

2025-12-23 18:35:46 UTC

*my thoughts on 2025 year
#nevent1q…k0k5

2025-12-23 18:00:30 UTC

#merrychristmas #christmas #happynewyear #newyear #year2025 #year2026

2025-12-23 17:52:21 UTC

I'm not scared and happy to share my thoughts on 2026 year publicly. This year was the most nervous and harshest since 2020. Poverty, uncertainty and hardship of finding a job with which I can live more than a slave with the only end. Several doubts if I do thing in right and optimal way in big and hard tasks without certain boundaries in a legacy system. While I was doing these things, my motivation was bumpy, sometimes going to extremes of "I won't do job today, it's completely worthless" and "I can implement this right and quickly because it's very fun and complex". Several electric blackouts, rent price increasing, eshurt blockades. When these waves combined into polycrisis moments, I went to think that my life is completely worthless. But every time I was close to the darkness, it felt that the Angel woke me up. Since this I have released that life still has meaning, until you literally has nothing to pursue your own path for your credo/(para-)ego. That's also why open communities and personalization simultaneously matters, like what I have found in Nostr. Thank you very much, guys! You are cute, cool, smart, strong and kind! You post interesting stuff valuable for learning.
However, the journey was interesting for me. I became more like a cat person, sleeping longer hours per day (siestas for warm months and longer monophasic sleeps in colder months). I has fallen in love for playing chess with myself. Sometimes lucid dreams happened with which did like watching and acting in episodes. I has gained clearer understanding from software practice in why freedom is different from anarchy, why harmony and love is different from obedience and complete passivity. It is a time when even autistic person like me needed to break a doubt wall towards more sociability and integrate it with existing logical, mechanistic, probabilistic, fuzzy thinking styles. I started to maintain my own relay, modified it to make Nostr more interesting and prosperous. Kinda meta-game.
Merry Christmas and Happy 2026 year! I wish you peaceful, fun and interesting 2026 year. Make handcrafted stuff, make open source, self-host Nostr relays, your sites and AI models, participate in discoveries, keep your peace and curiosity. Only all the gods of the Universe know what is right, starting from the lowest levels and going further in infinitely open nature towards love. Time to extend (meta-)thinking to emergentism and multivariate/open reductionism. Forgot FOMO and cons retardation, chill, have a fun and do right thing =^.^=
P.S. Remember SOPA, PIPA and ACTA back in 2011-2013. They were threatening shared media and then the entire Internet. They did not happen...

2025-12-22 11:07:25 UTC

A track of the ending 2025 year:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yPzlA--Ih-A

2025-12-22 08:05:36 UTC

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If you want to approach unbiased information, then better do it from positive side. For example, setting up your own relay.

2025-12-22 07:38:16 UTC

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I see evolutionary advantage in echo chambers. These may sort out doomers and trolls. Future is for more subjectivity imho

2025-12-22 07:23:07 UTC

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How would you find notes for specific theme in a linear feed? Hashtags ofc.

2025-12-22 07:16:46 UTC

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Final Fantasy VIII
Neverhood

2025-12-21 13:56:19 UTC

#nevent1q…h48q

2025-12-21 13:12:56 UTC

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Plain text editor

2025-12-21 12:36:29 UTC

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I listen to "Boards of Canada - Sixtyten"

2025-12-21 11:21:36 UTC

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(and you cannot ask bigger questions if your locality is not extended with technology you own)

2025-12-21 11:18:30 UTC

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Not in the same way tho. Compilers are mechanically deterministic and they replace very dumb copy-paste work. AI is probablistically deterministic. I see it mere as an enhanced search engine, prototypes and dialogue minion

2025-12-21 11:15:20 UTC

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Important thing about Dune: read it from beginning. Then you would grasp lessons for modern times in progressive manner. For Pali Canon there are four basic principles

2025-12-21 11:03:23 UTC

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(Buddhist scriptures also may connect both worlds of seeding conservatives with hierarchies and progressive autists)

2025-12-21 10:55:50 UTC

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*cognitive function

2025-12-21 10:55:01 UTC

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I think, Plato and Bible is mostly suitable for genetically healthy conservative dudes, who can live with only traditions. They potentially lean for building highly resilent systems like software for aircraft, Apollo etc. While adult fantasy like Dune and buddhism may offer insights for autistic people with some genetic quirks, with which they can still live if they have a lifestyle, which optimizes health and congnitive function with medicine, diet, exercises, education. Those build Internet and media software, participate in scientific discoveries.

2025-12-21 10:42:20 UTC

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Justice is an equilibrium in a meta-game *chu~*

2025-12-21 10:41:23 UTC

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Though Plato's utopia as a concept is interesting for me. And I grasped it in my project.

2025-12-21 10:33:36 UTC

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Yep

2025-12-21 10:32:40 UTC

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(this was an irony given AI brief review and your previous advocacy for "AI will replace programmers")
Utopia is ultimative. It relates to your complete trust to a teller of narrative. For me the Plato's utopia is not new, Western/IE civilizations already experienced its image in different forms of feudalism and dictatorships. So I recently fall for buddhism and individual microcultures which are more interesting for modern state of things.

2025-12-20 20:00:12 UTC

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Dune by Frank Herbert