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2026-02-18 16:13:34 UTC

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i finished the basket last night.
took around eleven yards, which wasnt a problem cos i didnt tie off the end when i got to eight, no worries in simply more twisting as needed.
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2026-02-07 05:02:23 UTC

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☺️ around three yards makes a palm sized basket, a basket that can fit one egg or some grapes, a basket for a squirrel 😂

2026-02-07 01:09:04 UTC

eight yards of the most slender cordage ive made yet 🤗
✨🪢🌽🪢✨

2026-02-03 01:12:18 UTC

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why i hate shakespeare:
cos it is artifice
all contrived
about its own cleverness
if the point of being a writer is getting out of the way to bring it thru, he is the most in-the-way writer ive ever come across. it is all in the way. the point is the shit he crafts that he puts in the way.
all mental
no spirit, no aliveness, no soul
he is, in this way, the most atheistic writer
#nevent1q…ygl9

2026-02-03 00:05:33 UTC

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if this was a scifi novel and i was condemned to living a thousand lifetimes that all had to be modern day but different, i wouldnt do it, but if i was condemned to 5000 lifetimes groundhog's day style, probably somewhere in the four thousands id become immensely credentialed on the subject of elizabethan plays with a focus on shakespeare just so i could say it's garage on twitter somewhere circa 2018 and someone could be like: what do you know?
and someone else could say: um, they would know
and i would just feel like this: 😌

2026-02-02 23:49:02 UTC

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like get that shit off your chest my guy i so know
i fucking hate shakespeare too
worst free tickets ever passed on to me
that shakesphere in the park shit with that guy from law and order
regret those hours too

2026-02-02 23:47:01 UTC

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i really need the weather to be a little warmer, i would like to go to a park where there are some people all the way over there, but then someone is over here by me and they are a huge shakespeare hater and i would like to go on a stroll with them while they eviscerate shakespeare and i could listen to them being a gigantic hater and i could nod and say: dude i know
like many many many times

2026-02-02 23:42:19 UTC

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have an example, watched weeks ago, didnt say anything, didnt want to be mean, objectively andrew scott is known as a good actor, i adore jessica brown findlay, and sorry this scene they did, this hamlet scene, sucks in such a way that im still super mad all these weeks later, not cos they suck, they are wonderful and talented and i like them and this isnt their fault, cos the material is truly that bad like it drives me crazy in an emperor's new clothes way like truly how is this not some psyop shit, like a colonization humilation ritual is paying deference to shakespeare and esteeming it to appear cultured and i cant i just cant and i know i cant be alone on this
https://youtu.be/6-dVn0BO3qs

2026-02-02 23:33:17 UTC

hey, sewing in silence for some time, and i need to get this off my chest, the only part of my day today that i strenuously regret, is reading some bullshit from 1546
sorry, im so fucking mad about it.
yes, rent free.
culturally, i profoundly hate the english.
i deeply truly honestly do not find the 'wit' or the 'humour' in their shit
i hate elizabethan plays
fuck shakespeare
sure, could someone say: well how can you say that when you havent spent a decade reading this shit in depth
and i will tell you, to do so would be a death sentence i cant take it
im sorry, im really not into anti-literacy of any kind, but at the same time, i just dont see enough people around saying elizabethan plays are so awful, the rhyme shit is so tedious and stupid, the cadence is so fucked, that it is truly a threat to one's health and sanity and sense of wellbeing
it is abusive to the english language
it is offensive to the musicality of words

2026-02-02 18:10:57 UTC

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the whole talk is worth it for just this moment and i could spend all day trying to put it into words, situating it into how it landed on me, the vagueries of the exactness of the context i dont have, but some of the guesses i can make, the timing, the larger picture of the question and how tom responded, whether this is a conscious practice put in place years ago (likely) but more than anything, reminding me of the
"stay home" thing im on atm
in this case hits me kinda like: "im not leaving" like you literally cant make me leave home
😂
https://blossom.primal.net/f8bba4c7718a5be26b310aa8ac1e97e004608f94dee9d61a52c1d0ac51a6ba9e.mov
#nevent1q…3ycz

2026-02-02 16:57:39 UTC

29.5.2025
title: PCC Forum: Brian Swimme & Tom Purton - Consumerism and the Cosmos
channel: PCC: Philosophy, Cosmology, and Consciousness
description:
Recorded on April 8, 2021
In front of our televisions and our computer screens, we are exposed to over a million advertisements per year. The edicts of consumerism form our children's first cosmology, and its logic permeates every aspect of our lives. Yet out of the window, a cosmos of extraordinary power and beauty awaits to be discovered and enjoyed, its logic not one of money but of relationship and story.
At the twenty-fifth anniversary of Brian's The Hidden Heart of the Cosmos we will look at some of the forces at work behind consumerism, particularly the core discoveries of Freud and Marx, before exploring some of the myriad ways in which our cosmos can re-enchant us.
Brian Thomas Swimme is the longest serving professor at the California Institute of Integral Studies. The great achievement of his life was spending a year with a sage in New York City; and, just as in the myth, he returned with a thimble of water from the monumental cascade of wisdom that is Thomas Berry. He is eternally grateful to Rick Tarnas and Robert McDermott for creating the thrilling adventure that is PCC.
Tom Purton holds a MAin Psychoanalysis, a language diploma in Sanskrit and a PhD in Philosophy, Cosmology and Consciousness from CIS, writing his dissertation on the connections between Stanislav Grof's work and Hindu thought. He is presently studying in the East-West Psychology program at CIS.
i remember tuning into this years ago, pleased to see it reuploaded and to have the chance to spend time here again
https://youtu.be/dR6vAYOYMm4

2026-02-02 00:41:06 UTC

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2026-02-01 21:49:03 UTC

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and you are doing a nonbinary thing with ayn rand and her anti-christian philosophy paired with a jerusalem cross? or am i interpreting that wrong?

2026-02-01 21:42:56 UTC

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'nor ask another man to live for mine.' seems like a pretty important part of the og sentiment

2026-02-01 21:38:19 UTC

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her birthday hadnt happened yet that year. she was 5 years, 8 months, 27 days old the day she was speaking to the prcs medic.

2026-02-01 21:04:32 UTC

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https://blossom.primal.net/864cdae08431ec7b055876bf4196859be974fcddd6654570b0787291eba32d11.mov
#nevent1q…jppf

2026-02-01 19:54:23 UTC

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2026-02-01 18:46:29 UTC

11.12.2023
title: The Complete Story of 'Lumps and Bumps' - Comme Des Garcons Spring 1997
channel: bliss foster
description (partial): "Today, we're covering a conceptual triumph of fashion as a medium - Comme des Garçon's Spring 1997 show - Body Meets Dress-Dress Meets Body.
This show lets us into incredibly important fashion designer Rei Kawakubo's process as an artist, as we discuss how her impact in business and culture through this crucial show. The knowledge that gained to make this video over the course of 3 years is supplied by authors on the subject whose work is listed below. We're going to go deep into why this show is the best, most important, most revolutionary fashion show of all time.
Through the original runway show, as well as her collaborations adjacent to it such as with Visionaire Magazine and Merch Cunningham, we will learn how concept made its way into fashion to stay for good -almost like this is some paid online fashion school :)"
https://youtu.be/t9RZoxj5HNA

2026-02-01 18:32:48 UTC

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my face every time i read anything geopolitical on nostr
https://blossom.primal.net/6000f318f90d53e6adefac3298a3e8df09d122f184237ac5ac7c19dbb741c81b.mov
#nevent1q…7h9t

2026-02-01 18:28:41 UTC

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idk i'll keep an eye out and return if i find anything related to or circling around a term or phrase for this
i know at this point, im personally emotionally suspicious of anything labeled: freedom tech

2026-02-01 18:01:49 UTC

quietly reflecting on if i anticipate a time when my bio isnt a lie
and no, cant forsee a time
the takes out here are not ok enough to lure me into a false sense of security that these are ok waters
none of you know me like that
cant have access to true bio sorry
wouldnt even give that shit to my ghostwriter i dont have

2026-02-01 17:52:59 UTC

Seydou Keïta. Untitled, 1949–51, printed 1998. Gelatin silver print. Courtesy of The Jean Pigozzi African Art Collection. © SKPEAC/Seydou Keïta, courtesy The Jean Pigozzi Collection of African Art and Danziger Gallery, NY
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2026-02-01 15:52:46 UTC

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thank you for the titles
cheers to a great day to you, too, and stay warm out there and in here!

2026-02-01 15:38:26 UTC

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thank you for sharing, im glad i read what you did, im not sure ive ever come across a book so well recommended before, id like to read it

2026-02-01 15:33:21 UTC

been chewing on the phrase:
incentives are a prison
and what it means
to be imprisoned by incentives
the etymology, of incentive, the noun, early 15c., that which moves the mind or stirs the passion, setting the tune, to sing, to kindle
the adjective, Milton used to mean: setting fire, incendiary. c. 1600: provocative, exciting, encouraging,
in reference to a system of rewards meant to encourage harder work, first attested 1943 in jargon of the U.S. war economy

2026-02-01 15:10:05 UTC

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2026-02-01 13:57:05 UTC

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gm laan, got me thinking about my time with a mamiya 645 and looking down chimneys to look out

2026-02-01 00:31:27 UTC

Early evening
over a neglected village.
And two eyes dreaming.
I go back thirty years...
and five wars.
I see that time holds for me a grain of hope.
The singer sings about fire and strangers.
And the evening was evening.
And the singer was singing.
And they interrogate him
"Why do you sing?"
He replies
"Because I sing."
They searched within him
But found only his heart
They searched his heart
But found only his people
They searched his voice
But found only his sadness
They searched his sadness
But found only his prison
They searched his prison
But found only themselves in chains
And the evening was evening.
And the singer was singing.
- Mahmoud Darwish
https://blossom.primal.net/3a4da4687f5e260f0b119fc0bae63f18120e8f5302c14023329c8aac5e26ec6d.mov

2026-01-31 17:41:37 UTC

the concept of the ground is really intense.
you stand on it.
there's so much shit under there.
what? idk
but you can dig down there to find out. it could be anything. there could be an underground lake. there could be bones. eventually it gets really hot.
it is comforting to have that. that it can only be warm. there are no icicles down there. if you find some you did something wrong.

2026-01-31 04:34:02 UTC

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in more seriousness, cos sorry for sharing garbage, this seems to be coming from proposals shared in june 2025 in the british national daily tabloid newspaper: daily mirror
owned by reach plc (known as trinity mirror between 1999 and 2018) aka the phone hacking by mirror group journalists people
to elaborate on the *objectively* so not funny part, cant imagine how much domestic violence, sexual assault, and alcohol and drug use would sky rocket if this was ever implemented
dire as hell out here

2026-01-31 01:55:11 UTC

*objectively* so not funny, yes
but it is making me laugh
dying that russia is saying:
im taking away the nintendo
taking your tiktoks
it is now the 1700s until sunrise
https://blossom.primal.net/c072a19085dacdae07814d41146c76187509684ee936b5dd96b94a0747a777c5.jpg

2026-01-30 21:54:30 UTC

Inner City Blues (Make Me Wanna Holler) by Marvin Gaye from What's Going On? (1971)
directed by the Hughes brothers (twins, Albert Hughes and Allen Hughes) and released in 1994 for the What's Going On? reissue
https://youtu.be/57Ykv1D0qEE

2026-01-30 16:55:40 UTC

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"Be suspicious of certainty.
That certainty is the beginning of something decomplexifying the actual situation.
And when inflation gets really hot inside of us, then anything that challenges the certainty becomes a problem."
- Joseph Lee
clip begins at 35m45s mark
https://blossom.primal.net/ceb7b37406b68f47d28adfc516f7ebfa9008b414e8b22ca0244641346feec4e2.mov
#nevent1q…36zy

2026-01-30 16:02:18 UTC

29.1.2026
title: Contagious Corruption
channel: this jungian life
description (partial): "Join Jungian analysts Deb, Joe, and Lisa as they discuss the psychology of corruption, reveal how power quietly rewires the ego, and share what to watch for when certainty starts feeling addictive.
They explain how trust erodes when bestowed power turns into private gain, why psychological inflation makes you feel superhuman while your consciousness dims, how certainty becomes a drug, and how fear and status games turn communities into us-versus-them.
They discuss why power itself is neutral, how it goes underground when you pretend you don't have any, and what it looks like to build checks and balances, in your relationships, in your workplace, and in your own head.
Finally, they discuss:
* The Heartless Giant fairytale
* Purity fantasies that fuel splitting
* Shadow-making
price of consciousness.
* The alchemical search for the incorruptible substance, from gold that never tarnishes to the Garden of Eden (where losing innocence might be the price of consciousness.)"
first listen was yesterday, listening to it for the second time now.
heads up: when it comes to the dream interpretation segment at the end, which they do every episode, they kinda really hit the dream submitter in a way ive never heard them hit anyone before.
~i understand the instinct to do so~ but i really dont think they should've cos he is a listener, as in, they are in a place of esteem to him and this is a public thing with a pretty big audience. idk, i just think a wack like that is pretty harsh like is he gonna walk away now underwriting his dreams to overcompensate forevermore? and for what.
https://youtu.be/O5xfVWHCPzI

2026-01-30 14:47:02 UTC

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the squirrels are still building their tunnels in the snow. one collapsed but there are many more now.
i know numbers the most, cos i would count up and count down from 100 while i was on walks years ago.

2026-01-30 14:29:46 UTC

sixteen mourning doves are eating seeds on my back deck. i know that cos i counted them in kanienʼkéha. other birds are here too, like blue jays and juncos and a pine sisken.

2026-01-30 14:15:30 UTC

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UPDATE 30.1.2026
Doctors Without Borders/ Médecins Sans Frontières (MSF):
"After months of unsuccessful engagement with Israeli authorities, and in the absence of assurances regarding the safety of our staff we have concluded that we will not share a list of Palestinian and international staff with Israeli authorities."
MSF International
@ MSF
https://www.msf.org/msf-statement-sharing-staff-information-and-humanitarian-operations-palestine
https://blossom.primal.net/351afdb3e29cd2fd2573d3109d05490ac89bcd034ea843c1a2c469e31d02ec0b.jpg

2026-01-30 04:10:52 UTC

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no, thank you.

2026-01-30 00:44:06 UTC

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https://blossom.primal.net/18f1368addc845510f2fa92cc23d03bd63d50552a69ed8e64fa0ec053707e4c8.mov

2026-01-29 23:26:01 UTC

The High Road by Broken Bells from their self-titled debut album (2010). Written by James Mercer and Danger Mouse, and produced by the latter, the song was released as the album's lead single on 22 December 2009.
directed by Sophie Muller
https://youtu.be/gWBG1j_flrg

2026-01-29 17:19:48 UTC

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ok a breathing exercise helped

2026-01-29 17:17:22 UTC

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derek im a little busy rn fighting for my life i'll circle back

2026-01-29 17:16:22 UTC

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it is very universal to be into a LFG! moment
a lot of people, like heavy majority can say: builds? i like those
crescendos? im down
i know i dont have to be embarrassed

2026-01-29 17:14:21 UTC

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im still winning against william wallace btw
yea i know the dialogue from the scene so yea i have the whole speech in my head, but did i pull it up on youtube?
no.

2026-01-29 17:12:51 UTC

i have a really tumultuous relationship with my desires and i should consider coming to terms with that before im forty i feel like

2026-01-29 17:00:58 UTC

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cant be embarrassing in this regard cant be this suggestible cant be this susceptible to mel gibson's fervent charm in that scene what am i? a sitting goose for hypnotists? ive redoubled my efforts
i will not give in
#nevent1q…muc0

2026-01-29 16:56:41 UTC

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fighting valiantly against the urge to pull up this scene
and im starting to flag
my resolve is crumbling

2026-01-29 16:02:06 UTC

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thank you. a relief to know my cover's been blown. that the jig is up. newfound peace in newborn aftermath.

2026-01-29 15:54:42 UTC

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lentils are swoonworthy
and if this is iron deficiency
i honestly think it may be something to consider, becoming iron deficient, to ~then~ experience lentils cos this is great
#nevent1q…jpqm

2026-01-29 15:50:05 UTC

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maybe we know the universe is loving cos lentils happened to us
maybe it is like that actually

2026-01-29 15:49:19 UTC

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i mean sure, this could be an iron deficiency speaking thru me, cos idk that lentils w/o any herbs yet, just onions and mushrooms and olive oil and salt should be this this this good
but maybe yea maybe should be maybe this is the one thing made tasty in excess

2026-01-29 15:46:31 UTC

god, sometimes lentils are so good as to be a little unreasonable

2026-01-29 14:30:11 UTC

25.1.2026
2026/3: Take Responsibility! Avoid the Toxic Feedback Loop of Secondary Information
Channel: Mordecai Ogada
https://youtu.be/ebnIyDWWXbg

2026-01-29 00:58:16 UTC

"I Don't Want to Wait" is a song written, recorded, and produced by American singer-songwriter Paula Cole. Cole wrote the song in mid-1996 and released it as second single from her second studio album, This Fire (1996), on October 14, 1997.
Paula Cole wrote "I Don't Want to Wait" at her spinet piano in her apartment in New York City during mid-1996.
Described by Cole as "a very personal song", she wrote the song when she realized that her grandfather was near the end of his life. The song is about him and his wife, and specifically the relationship between their life and Cole's who realized "I don't want to make some of these mistakes. I really hope I don't".
Cole has described the central question of the chorus as "Do you say yes to life? Do you embrace the things that give you joy? Or do you cower back in fear or by culture's machinations keeping you small?"
via wikipedia
https://youtu.be/L_dVEtLPdDE

2026-01-29 00:46:17 UTC

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how can the problem ever be spoiling children
like oh the people with no agency, no cash, no autonomy, no ability to tell you to fuck off without repercussion
the people who have no bill of rights? are not landowners? can't vote? can't run away from school without being charged with truancy?
they are just the easiest target cos they have nothing to fight back with
they just have to take it
they just have to do what it takes to survive inside whatever crazy power dynamic is going on or perish

2026-01-29 00:40:24 UTC

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very clearly, if on the face of it, like what isnt allowed to exist, what makes everyone uncomfortable societally, is a little boy who is 'too old' to be crying and carrying on like that
am i so fucking sure that That like right there, needs to be tended to, and protected, and cared for, and made space for, and encouraged to be allowed to exist
like if the instinct societally is like: nah
there needs to be a doubletake, a pause, a moment, and then a: yea actually. ok.

2026-01-29 00:33:23 UTC

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there's just no way this is right
sorry.
im pretty sure little boys have to be 'spoiled' way way way more tho i reject that word in the first place
the pressure since the beginning of time is not to spoil little boys
so like, 1. it isnt a novel notion
2. it doesnt 'work' whatever that is supposed to mean, as in, you can't de-spoil someone, austere someone, into being a loving, compassionate, sound, responsible, healthy grownup
like the idea that you wouldnt nurture or tend to a little boy like you would a little girl because that little boy is a little boy and because of his gender and 'for his future wife'🥴 is kinda unwell
#nevent1q…9mca

2026-01-28 21:36:50 UTC

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eating shit so rare
it never even hatched
(eggs) 😌

2026-01-28 21:23:43 UTC

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✨🧚✨

2026-01-28 13:35:27 UTC

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wonderful decision
enjoy ❄️

2026-01-28 04:28:56 UTC

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goodnight connie 🛌🌙✨

2026-01-28 02:49:25 UTC

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at the very least, it's the time you never regret wasting on your death bed
all the dumb shit you did for other people for love

2026-01-28 02:44:31 UTC

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im pretty sure, like can quote me, that skills aquired for love alone can save your life
i dont know what kinda situation id have to be caught up in where elementary understanding of lacan is getting me out of a life or death pickle, i do understand the chances are exceedingly rare, but hey
i dont doubt it
#nevent1q…fhl0

2026-01-28 02:29:23 UTC

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you can stand there fishing after that crumb
that's lacan
or you can dump out the pot and fill it with fresh water and no crumb
that's your lacan-free life

2026-01-28 02:25:28 UTC

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im such a good friend for that i kinda never thought it about it like that before
lacan is madness
listening to someone teaching lacan mighy be even worse madness
so elusive
like ya know how if there is a crumb
floating in a big pot of water and you are like ???? that shouldnt be in there so you try to fish it out with a spoon and it becomes the impossible task

2026-01-28 02:21:31 UTC

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stumble across some fuckin lacan
that absolute madman
dude the clubhouse lacan talks are so famous that was so insane i listened to hours of this lacan guy teaching lacan just for my friend cos i loved her and she was into it and wanted to talk about it

2026-01-28 02:19:45 UTC

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guys when are we gonna talk about lacan on nostr
when am i gonna find some lacan chat out in the wild
#nevent1q…7da4

2026-01-28 02:18:51 UTC

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so this was more like..
this tweet was when i arrived into an orgasm of giggling at my screen
was fucking amazing
im afterglowin
guys they were talking about lacan and shit

2026-01-28 02:17:16 UTC

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to be so fair, cos maybe it doesnt land out of context, the entire conversation (this is a reply) like everyones contributions were already making me so happy

2026-01-28 02:15:21 UTC

🏆
i laughed outloud
im still smiling
im so happy
https://blossom.primal.net/f51bd6b74e48fbfd6738ee499a639002c61e545e008d51527ec7a6ad5e5b2d97.jpg

2026-01-28 00:01:37 UTC

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hey, i just started watching judge dee's mystery on netflix and episode one has a great vibe like a comical detective show with good fight scenes. in chinese! english subtitles! only 40 minutes in but yea i recommend!

2026-01-27 19:24:44 UTC

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orange bitcoin m&ms

2026-01-27 19:22:31 UTC

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😅 thank god he didnt get me i wouldve screamed
✅ marked safe from this sorcerer

2026-01-27 19:05:35 UTC

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seeing the birds, the little juncos, go down into the snow tunnels and pop up from a different hole
underground snow birds
is making my day
#nevent1q…ncde

2026-01-27 18:29:01 UTC

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what does it mean to say that about a song, an album, a novel, a painting, a sweater, a poem, a phonecall, an email, a youtube video,
imagine saying that about even a single novel over an entire lifetime?
i never took that book for granted
i carried it with me
within me
was with me always the very whole time

2026-01-27 18:24:55 UTC

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like what does it mean to say:
i ate what you made
you made me a meal and i ate it, actually ate it, i was home when i ate it, here when i ate it, i digested it, i was nourished by it, i didnt take it for granted, the time you took to make it, all the time that went into your waymaking to make it that makes how you made it, your way of making it.

2026-01-27 18:21:39 UTC

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days ago, while i was cooking and wanted company, wanted to hear someone talking that i like to listen to,
i listened to angela collier's 'this is what 2 years of chatgpt does to your brain' https://youtu.be/7pqF90rstZQ
the moment it ended, i replayed it. i listened to it three times over. and that's just at first contact. could stay thinking about that, what she discussed and how she discussed it, for months, easily

2026-01-27 18:17:16 UTC

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thinking to, about what it takes to absorb and digest in time, to have it, as in,
on the one hand, oh my goodness do i love learning, love reading, love finding new thoughts and perspectives from other people, libraries and bookstores generally thrill me,
and on the other, ive already had enough for a lifetime, if not several

2026-01-27 18:14:05 UTC

along the lines of "touch grass"
this morning in the quiet of silence, just me and corn leaves, was thinking a lot about staying home
practicing staying home
coming home
being home
if the present is seven years behind today, according to poet david whyte, moments today, new choices today, are seven years behind the fully arrived, embodying into them, generally speaking, what growing into a becoming is,
at home is already there

2026-01-27 18:07:34 UTC

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update: https://primal.net/e/nevent1qqs953yc6zrk2rp79ntx95xk8s4ur0ul903e97ytszqk8x2k5qzew7c49fppz

2026-01-27 18:07:14 UTC

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i was wrong about this, btw, it's a different robe, if i find a pic i'll share it
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2026-01-27 14:34:24 UTC

jester/royal advisor is genderless.
storied tradition of female jesters and fools. also, many women have been royal advisors, named and unnamed.
i get that it is a complex when you can't help but ~make~ that dynamic, as in, to write without consideration and respect for the narrative someone has for themselves. that's super shitty. if you are not permeable enough to cowrite in a relationship, ya kinda are not even in one, to me, just being a director in a movie and your actors dont have a union.
like all externalized archetypes, when suffering a complex, the task is calling it home,
identifying and nurturing within
or, i mean, can get out of the supremacy of what "smarter than" even means in the first place. like by what rubric, with what access can you see into another's mindself, evaluating by what metrics
https://blossom.primal.net/e275e15ccaaae1830e2b1630795cb65e4f19112c6da2bc60d2e9d3258110c42d.jpg

2026-01-27 04:56:11 UTC

been immensely privileged to work with corn leaves for so much of the day
few things make me happier than when i get to work with a single material, that is free, that is biodegradable, and that work is anon
how so much is then so clearly only about time, a waterclock made out of a waterclock, for me

2026-01-27 01:09:46 UTC

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please understand this bird is about the size of a blue jay irl
like whatever you think small means, in bird of prey terms, imagine less
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2026-01-27 00:22:05 UTC

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today i am alive as a fact
a fact born of not even ten minutes ago
a new fact of the matter

2026-01-27 00:18:47 UTC

if you've never laid on your belly in the bath and swayed slowly side to side so you can experience your pubic hair dancing like a kelp forest while you imagine your butt is an island beach with some palm trees on it are you even alive

2026-01-26 22:14:21 UTC

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idk im not a tech guy sorry
i hope a pirate comes along to help you
is it good? the musical? i havent seen it

2026-01-26 22:12:41 UTC

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would you bring company to the library if you had shit to do there
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2026-01-26 22:11:08 UTC

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what would be the purpose of going to a museum not alone?
if you are going to the museum For the museum, alone is the only way to do it
if the point is to enjoy your friend enjoying stuff at a museum, then yea, ok i can see that

2026-01-26 20:38:49 UTC

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that isnt showing off how good it looks tho, it has a lot of dark thread in the crevasses so it looks really extra three dimensional in a lot of frames

2026-01-26 20:36:17 UTC

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it's this one
https://blossom.primal.net/832a0bb0ef7a955caba4af3e8a2679de3d0aecaff2ddf0b6a8f97b9341235324.png

2026-01-26 20:33:32 UTC

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im really captivated by the embroidery on one of them, i'll see if i can find a still

2026-01-26 20:32:06 UTC

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how much rides on the costumes?
i mean, also yes
remy in his outfits man it's crazy

2026-01-26 20:30:32 UTC

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is it easy to tell my media diet of late is the last kingdom and marco polo?
which, btw, the second season of marco polo, i always forget how bad it is, like if you told me the showrunners were replaced or a writer was or there was a producing issue or timeline problem id say: absolutely
the first season is so great tho
and michelle yeoh is only in the second season
the mini episode "Marco Polo: One Hundred Eyes" is excellent, btw
like my official recommend is maybe just do s1 and the mini episode
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2026-01-26 20:25:38 UTC

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AI could never is all im saying

2026-01-26 20:22:19 UTC

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that's not some dime a dozen shit
an enemy like that is rare rare

2026-01-26 20:20:18 UTC

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imagine passing on the opportunity to have a wonderful enemy
an exquisite foe
an amazing infernal undoing coalescing around another human being in such a way that their very continued existence makes you furious
a remarkable hatred
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2026-01-26 19:06:45 UTC

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like imagine saying:
the cost of a relationship with you is that i had to mantra gaslight the shit out of myself re: my own discomfort
cos that's literally tragic, very gross, super sad, not loving, really bad

2026-01-26 19:05:28 UTC

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secondly, like objectively,
if it is like:
here i am having to brainwash myself re: my own discomfort
vs
sacrificing that relationship?
yo sacrifice that relationship who gives a shit

2026-01-26 19:03:49 UTC

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growth does not require discomfort you have to be told it requires
cos first of all, require is a crazy word when shilling advice
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